Lord, I can’t lie in my heart when I feel sad, heavy weight on my chest and the ache. No matter what I do or not, I always get in trouble everywhere and everytime. I tried explain but no listen to me and none believe in me. I did the wrong thing and sin in the past. But I am not person anymore for long time but still not believing in me now, it make my angers grow more and more. I still hold it back down however, for how long can I hold and be still? That I do not know. Lord, only you can cleanse my soul as I still hold my faith.